Having not written in a while, I just wanted to post a quick update. The devil has been beating me up pretty good for many months. I have been struggling in many areas of my life. That said, I still love the Lord Jesus. His grace toward me is amazing. I know that I am saved by God’s grace and not by my works (Ephesians 2:8-9; Titus 3:5-7). I know that my salvation is based on the work of the Lord Jesus and not my works (Romans 4:5). I know that I have peace with God through the Lord Jesus Christ (Romans 5:1) and He is my peace (Ephesians 2:14).
I ask for prayer. I ask for forgiveness from anyone I have hurt. I do long to please the Lord despite seeing my faults on a daily basis. Each day I pray Martin Luther’s daily prayer: “Lord help me to not sin this day” and then I pray with Luther during the evening when I go to bed, “Lord forgive me of my sins this day.” I am thankful that God does forgive me of my sins (1 John 1:9). I long for holiness (Hebrews 12:14) despite seeing my sins in the light of the gospel. Thank God for the good news of His grace.
So I am okay. I find each new day the truths of God’s grace and His mercy while finding my sins in the light of the perfection of the Lord Jesus.